Have you ever been so in love that you just know there is no way you will ever feel the same about another. You know what I mean. The emptiness they have left behind will never again be filled. Well, today I lost the love of my life. Actually, I sold the love of my life like she was some cheap whore. I already feel guilty and lost without her. We had an age difference. I am 58, she is 46. I’m pretty much worn out, but still have no difficulty climbing on top of her for a little action, sometimes making it last all day, sometimes making it last all night. I have to tell you, she’s a sexy little bitch with a throaty little moan that just excites the hell out of me. I didn’t want to see her go.
What sucks the most is I lied. I straight up lied to her. I told her that I would never let her go. But, I did. We had only been together a few years, but I loved her with a passion. We would sneak off together and just take a night out running around playing in the City or along the coast and it was just fun spending time together. I promised her the she would be my gal forever, but I lied. She is no longer with me and I do not know what to do. I truly miss her and cannot get her out of my mind. I can never forgive myself. Never, not even if she forgives me.
My friends see me upset and tell me that I will find another. I know that is not the truth. I will never find another that made me feel the freedom and fun she did. Just being with her made my spirit and my heart scream with lust and pleasures of my lust abounded every where we were. Now, she is gone and quietly I cry my tears of sorrow being discreet so nobody notices my pain. I hope wherever she is, she is not unhappy, that they are treating her with the love and care she deserves. I hope whoever is with her now, recognizes how beautiful she is. I hope they feel the same excitement that she gave to me every day we were together. I hope she never feels the emptiness that I feel inside of me. I hope she has someone that is a better man than me, and they make her life happy again. I hope all of you never have to experience the pain that overwhelms my heart at this very moment.
My Lord, what have I done . . . I have kicked my baby into the arms of another man. I ‘m sorry baby!